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    icameawaywithoutsayingaword:iwastoomuchaffected。

    atlastihavediscoveredwhattruepleasureis。afterbeholdingtheegotismofsensualityandofintellect;ihavefoundthehappyself…sacrificeofgoodness。pierre;m。antoine;andmotherdenishadallkepttheircarnival;butforthefirsttwo;itwasonlyafeastforthesensesorthemind;whileforthethird;itwasafeastfortheheart。



 CHAPTER III

    whatwemaylearnbylookingoutofwindow

    march3d

    apoethassaidthatlifeisthedreamofashadow:hewouldbetterhaveparedittoanightoffever!whatalternatefitsofrestlessnessandsleep!whatdisfort!whatsuddenstarts!whatever…returningthirst!

    whatachaosofmournfulandconfusedfancies!wecanneithersleepnorwake;weseekinvainforrepose;andwestopshortonthebrinkofaction。twothirdsofhumanexistencearewastedinhesitation;andthelastthirdinrepenting。

    whenisayhumanexistence;imeanmyown!wearesomadethateachofusregardshimselfasthemirrorofthemunity:whatpassesinourmindsinfalliblyseemstousahistoryoftheuniverse。everymanislikethedrunkardwhoreportsanearthquake;becausehefeelshimselfstaggering。

    andwhyamiuncertainandrestless鈥斺�攊;apoorday…laborerintheworld鈥斺�攚hofillanobscurestationinacornerofit;andwhoseworkitavailsitselfof;withoutheedingtheworkman?iwilltellyou;myunseenfriend;forwhomtheselinesarewritten;myunknownbrother;onwhomthesolitarycallinsorrow;myimaginaryconfidant;towhomallmonologuesareaddressedandwhoisbuttheshadowofourownconscience。

    agreateventhashappenedinmylife!acrossroadhassuddenlyopenedinthemiddleofthemonotonouswayalongwhichiwastravellingquietly;andwithoutthinkingofit。tworoadspresentthemselves;andimustchoosebetweenthem。oneisonlythecontinuationofthatihavefollowedtillnow;theotheriswider;andexhibitswondrousprospects。

    onthefirstthereisnothingtofear;butalsolittletohope;ontheotheraregreatdangersandgreatfortune。briefly;thequestionis;whetherishallgiveupthehumbleofficeinwhichithoughttodie;foroneofthoseboldspeculationsinwhichchancealoneisbanker!eversinceyesterdayihaveconsultedwithmyself;ihaveparedthetwoandiremainundecided。

    whereshallifindlight鈥斺�攚howilladviseme?

    sunday;4th鈥斺�攕eethesuningoutfromthethickfogsofwinter!

    springannouncesitsapproach;asoftbreezeskimsovertheroofs;andmywallflowerbeginstoblowagain。

    wearenearthatsweetseasonoffreshgreen;ofwhichthepoetsofthesixteenthcenturysangwithsomuchfeeling:

    nowthegladsomemonthofmay。

    allthingsnewlydotharray;fairestlady;letmetoo。

    inthylovemyliferenew。

    thechirpingofthesparrowscallsme:theyclaimthecrumbsiscattertothemeverymorning。iopenmywindow;andtheprospectofroofsopensoutbeforemeinallitssplendor。

    hewhohaslivedonlyonafirstfloorhasnoideaofthepicturesquevarietyofsuchaview。hehasnevercontemplatedthesetile…coloredheightswhichintersecteachother;hehasnotfollowedwithhiseyesthesegutter…valleys;wherethefreshverdureoftheatticgardenswaves;thedeepshadowswhicheveningspreadsovertheslatedslopes;andthesparklingofwindowswhichthesettingsunhaskindledtoablazeoffire。hehasnotstudiedthefloraofthesealpsofcivilization;carpetedbylichensandmosses;heisnotacquaintedwiththemyriadinhabitantsthatpeoplethem;fromthemicroscopicinsecttothedomesticcat鈥斺�攖hatreynardoftheroofswhoisalwaysontheprowl;orinambush;hehasnotwitnessedthethousandaspectsofaclearoracloudysky;northethousandeffectsoflight;thatmaketheseupperregionsatheatrewithever…changingscenes!howmanytimeshavemydaysofleisurepassedawayincontemplatingthiswonderfulsight;indiscoveringitsdarkerorbrighterepisodes;inseeking;inshort;inthisunknownworldfortheimpressionsoftravelthatwealthytouristslookforlower!

    nineoclock鈥斺�攂utwhy;then;havenotmywingedneighborspickedupthecrumbsihavescatteredforthembeforemywindow?iseethemflyaway;eback;perchupontheledgesofthewindows;andchirpatthesightofthefeasttheyareusuallysoreadytodevour!itisnotmypresencethatfrightensthem;ihaveaccustomedthemtoeatoutofmyhand。then;whythisfearfulsuspense?invainilookaround:theroofisclear;thewindowsnearareclosed。icrumblethebreadthatremainsfrommybreakfasttoattractthembyanamplerfeast。theirchirpingsincrease;theybenddowntheirheads;theboldestapproachuponthewing;butwithoutdaringtoalight。

    e;e;mysparrowsarethevictimsofoneofthefoolishpanicswhichmakethefundsfallatthebourse!itisplainthatbirdsarenotmorereasonablethanmen!

    withthisreflectioniwasabouttoshutmywindow;whensuddenlyiperceived;inaspotofsunshineonmyright;theshadowoftwopricked…upears;thenapawadvanced;thentheheadofatabby…catshoweditselfatthecornerofthegutter。thecunningfellowwaslyingthereinwait;hopingthecrumbswouldbringhimsomegame。

    andihadaccusedmyguestsofcowardice!iwassosurethatnodangercouldmenacethem!ithoughtihadlookedwelleverywhere!ihadonlyforgottenthecornerbehindme!

    inlife;asontheroofs;howmanymisfortunesefromhavingforgottenasinglecorner!

    tenoclock鈥斺�攊cannotleavemywindow;therainandthecoldhavekeptitshutsolongthatimustreconnoitrealltheenvironstobeabletotakepossessionofthemagain。myeyessearchinsuccessionallthepointsofthejumbledandconfusedprospect;passingonorstoppingaccordingtowhattheylightupon。

    ah!seethewindowsuponwhichtheyformerlylovedtorest;theyarethoseoftwounknownneighbors;whosedifferenthabitstheyhavelongremarked。

    oneisapoorwork…woman;whorisesbeforesunrise;andwhoseprofileisshadoweduponherlittlemuslinwindow…curtainfarintotheevening;theotherisayoungsongstress;whosevocalflourishessometimesreachmyatticbysnatches。whentheirwindowsareopen;thatofthework…womandiscoversahumblebutdecentabode;theother;anelegantlyfurnishedroom。butto…dayacrowdoftradespeoplethrongthelatter:theytakedownthesilkhangingsandcarryoffthefurniture;andinowrememberthattheyoungsingerpassedundermywindowthismorningwithherveildown;andwalkingwiththehastystepofonewhosufferssomeinwardtrouble。ah!iguessitall。hermeansareexhaustedinelegantfancies;orhavebeentakenawaybysomeunexpectedmisfortune;andnowshehasfallenfromluxurytoindigence。whilethework…womanmanagesnotonlytokeepherlittleroom;butalsotofurnishitwithdecentfortbyhersteadytoil;thatofthesingerisbeethepropertyofbrokers。theonesparkledforamomentonthewaveofprosperity;theothersailsslowlybutsafelyalongthecoastofahumbleandlaboriousindustry。

    alas!istherenotherealessonforusall?isitreallyinhazardousexperiments;attheendofwhichweshallmeetwithwealthorruin;thatthewisemanshouldemployhisyearsofstrengthandfreedom?oughthetoconsiderlifeasaregularemploymentwhichbringsitsdailywages;orasagameinwhichthefutureisdeterminedbyafewthrows?whyseektheriskofextremechances?forwhatendhastentorichesbydangerousroads?isitreallycertainthathappinessistheprizeofbrilliantsuccesses;ratherthanofawiselyacceptedpoverty?ah!ifmenbutknewinwhatasmalldwellingjoycanlive;andhowlittleitcoststofurnishit!

    twelveoclock鈥斺�攊havebeenwalkingupanddownmyatticforalongtime;withmyarmsfoldedandmyeyesontheground!mydoubtsincrease;likeshadowsencroachingmoreandmoreonsomebrightspace;myfearsmultiply;andtheuncertaintybeeseverymomentmorepainfultome!

    itisnecessaryformetodecideto…day;andbeforetheevening!iholdthediceofmyfuturefateinmyhands;andidarenotthrowthem。

    threeoclock鈥斺�攖heskyhasbeecloudy;andacoldwindbeginstoblowfromthewest;allthewindowswhichwereopenedtothesunshineofabeautifuldayareshutagain。onlyontheoppositesideofthestreet;thelodgeronthelaststoryhasnotyetlefthisbalcony。

    oneknowshimtobeasoldierbyhisregularwalk;hisgraymoustaches;andtheribbonthatdecorateshisbuttonhole。indeed;onemighthaveguessedasmuchfromthecarehetakesofthelittlegardenwhichistheornamentofhisbalconyinmid…air;fortherearetwothingsespeciallylovedbyalloldsoldiers鈥斺�攆lowersandchildren。theyhavebeensolong;obligedtolookupontheearthasafieldofbattle;andsolongcutofffromthepeacefulpleasuresofaquietlot;thattheyseemtobeginlifeatanagewhenothersendit。thetastesoftheirearlyyears;whichwerearrestedbythesterndutiesofwar;suddenlybreakoutagainwiththeirwhitehairs;andarelikethesavingsofyouthwhichtheyspendagaininoldage。besides;theyhavebeencondemnedtobedestroyersforsolongthatperhapstheyfeelasecretpleasureincreating;andseeinglifespringupagain:thebeautyofweaknesshasagraceandanattractionthemoreforthosewhohavebeentheagentsofunbendingforce;andthewatchingoverthefrailgermsoflifehasallthecharmsofnoveltyfortheseoldworkmenofdeath。

    thereforethecoldwindhasnotdrivenmyneighborfromhisbalcony。

    heisdigginguptheearthinhisgreenboxes;andcarefullysowingtheseedsofthescarletnasturtium;convolvulus;andsweet…pea。henceforthhewilleeverydaytowatchfortheirfirstsprouting;toprotecttheyoungshootsfromweedsorinsects;toarrangethestringsforthetendrilstoclimbon;andcarefullytoregulatetheirsupplyofwaterandheat!

    howmuchlabortobringinthedesiredharvest!forthat;howmanytimesshalliseehimbravecoldorheat;windorsun;ashedoesto…day!butthen;inthehotsummerdays;whentheblindingdustwhirlsincloudsthroughourstreets;whentheeye;dazzledbytheglareofwhitestucco;knowsnotwheretorest;andtheglowingroofsreflecttheirheatuponustoburning;theoldsoldierwillsitinhisarborandperceivenothingbutgreenleavesandflowersaroundhim;andthebreezewillecoolandfreshtohimthroughtheseperfumedshades。hisassiduouscarewillberewardedatlast。

    wemustsowtheseeds;andtendthegrowth;ifwewouldenjoytheflower。

    fouroclock鈥斺�攖hecloudsthathavebeengatheringinthehorizonforalongtimearebeedarker;itthundersloudly;andtherainpoursdown!

    thosewhoarecaughtinitflyineverydirection;somelaughingandsomecrying。

    ialwaysfindparticularamusementinthesehelter…skelters;causedbyasuddenstorm。itseemsasifeachone;whenthustakenbysurprise;losesthefactitiouscharacterthattheworldorhabithasgivenhim;andappearsinhistruecolors。

    see;forexample;thatbigmanwithdeliberatestep;whosuddenlyforgetshisindifference;madetoorder;andrunslikeaschoolboy!heisathriftycitygentleman;who;withallhisfashionableairs;isafraidtospoilhishat。

    thatprettywomanyonder;onthecontrary;whoselooksaresomodest;andwhosedressissoelaborate;slackensherpacewiththeincreasingstorm。sheseemstofindpleasureinbravingit;anddoesnotthinkofhervelvetcloakspottedbythehail!sheisevidentlyalionessinsheepsclothing。

    here;ayoungman;whowaspassing;stopstocatchsomeofthehailstonesinhishand;andexaminesthem。byhisquickandbusiness…likewalkjustnow;youwouldhavetakenhimforatax…gathereronhisrounds;whenheisayoungphilosopher;studyingtheeffectsofelectricity。andthoseschoolboyswholeavetheirrankstorunafterthesuddengustsofamarchwhirlwind;thosegirls;justnowsodemure;butwhonowflywithburstsoflaughter;thosenationalguards;whoquitthemartialattitudeoftheir
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